My heart is raining...

It has been raining for the past few days and finally the sun is shining brightly this morning. But somehow my heart is still raining....The rains did not wash away my sorrows because I am again disappointed by the fact that I am not pregnant! I cried badly last night and didn't sleep well.

Dear daughter has been asking for a little brother to play with. And I really don't want to leave this world leaving her alone by herself! She has many cousins but I still hope that she would have someone closer to look out for whenever she needs. I am really uncertain whether her wish will come true eventually....It seems so easy for other mothers to conceive, but I have been waiting for years...Only God knows when will be my turn...